Trying to find trust after cheating is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. At first I was so angry I thought for sure I would leave, but that’s easy to say when he’s away. Now that’s I’ve spent the last week with him, talking through everything it’s like I feel hope again. I believe he just made one mistake and I believe we can do this. But now that I’m sitting here alone again while he’s with our friends I’m terrified that maybe I was wrong. It’s terrifying to think that we have no control over others that we just have to put our faith and effort out there and hope for the best, and that we never truly know what they’re capable of. What I know is that I love him more than I’ve ever loved anyone and that I’m terrified, but I guess that’s love.